Lover

Ever since that night when I got home and talked to my parents, my mind was made up such that I closed an unconscious backdoor that I had inside of me.

Ever since then my step has been springy, my heart is anticipating and my mind overwhelmed with joy and it's ideas of joy.

I still see you as him, that one, the one. Suddenly i'm dreaming, thinking, leaning, loving, laughing, anticipating. I'm clear in my resolve. It has been a long time since I've had something to really look forward to. (: