Close to You

The past week has been more than a blur- all I can remember is my wide eyes, heart racing. Half the year is gone, that is more than enough cause for celebration. Every new threshold crossed is a celebration of the old one closed well, but also an unnerving time of re-orientation to the new. I don't take change well- not this week at least. My portfolio was a borderline pass. My research hadn't been sorted out. My pracs were just starting and nothing was concrete or routine. I was in a heightened state of emergency, and the night I got no sleep was when I really cracked.

Poor Dennis, he didn't quite know what to do (I didn't either?), but on Saturday when I needed someone, he was there. I burst out into tears in my hallway and he just held me for a while. It really helped. I felt safe. He took me out to dinner. We talked, a lot. I felt so comforted. And most of all, we praised God at 12 midnight in my house together on the guitar. It was like magic, the stress dissipated, and we went to bed and awoke with a song in our hearts each. He surprised me by sneaking up on me after I had brushed my teeth and I got a big bear hug! I feel so loved.

Dennis is right, it is a balance of three: Spiritual, emotional, physical. And the balance feels really good.

All I've been feeling recently is a desire to be close. Not near, not clingy, just close. It's warm, and reassuring. I want to be close to you for all of this life I have.

There's salsa lessons in Curtin, but I don't think we have either time or money this semester. Maybe next year.

The future is God-determined, and He takes care of His people. The Lord will remain our sun and shield, and He shall, He must be glorified.

I love you, dear! XOXO